Oh so difficult!

Just finish reading In Dubious Battle by John Steinbeck.  I felt that the first couple chapter was intriguing.  Then it started to drags on until the last few chapters.  However, I was griped and pulled into this worm whole of a depressing novel with the last three chapters.  Overall it was a pretty interesting book. I find my wanting more from “the red” Jim Nolan. He had so much more to offer.  I feel neglected not getting more from this character.

The only difficult part in this novel is to find time to read it.  But, when I do find the time, I have difficultly getting started.  Getting the brain to fire on all cylinders while reading is pretty hard.  In general I have a problem with comprehend thing when I read it just once or reading for a long period of time. I tend to loose track of thing and daydream about how I should ask out this girl in my class. Anyhow, this book takes up a lot of your time.  Its not an easy read as well.  I didn’t find myself connecting with the characters.  I did understand where Jim Nolan was coming from. Also, I  feel this book was too much about Mac.  In the end this book was depression.  Don’t think I will read any of John Steinbeck books again. 

United farm workers

The united farmworkers unions are hand down the unsung heroes in the land of boycotts groups and protester mobs. Along with one of there founder Cesar Chavez. He would change the whole perspective on unionisms. Cesar Chavez would preach nonviolent striking; this would force the hand of the grower to negotiate and barging.  Casar chavez would piggyback Mohandas Gandhi’s philosophy on the fasting technics as the nonviolent way to demonstration.  He would fasts multiple times with water as his only replenishment.  In 1968 he would fasts for 24 days and in 1972 he fasts for 24 days.  Plus in 1988 he fasts for a miraculous 36 days.  Cesar Chavez is a giant among men.

In the last past week I have been contemplating what my next chapter in my life should be.  Do I want to continue in the medic flied?  Can I see my self do something like this for the rest of my life?  The answer was yes.  But, can I defeat the struggle I am having with the classes that are kick my butt. The path to the promise land has a rough terrain.  I had barely passed my chemistry class.  Now my Biology class has me second-guessing my self.  Do I still want to resume is path. I still have to take physiology and anatomy before I am able to transfers.  It’s only going to get tougher.  Maybe I should just go in business management or some tech savvy career. 

            Only if I can find my calling like Cesar Chavez did.  I want to have a cause and something to fight for.  I want to make a different. I know I sound like every other Y generation tree hugger.  But, I am a 80's baby.  I cant help that, I want to help people that cant help them self. This post is more than just a brainstorm, this post has become my own psychologists couch. Thank you for listening it mean a lot 8)